i promise

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YOU ARE NOT THE SUM OF YOUR MARKS

                                             OF YOUR WRITING

                                             OF YOUR APPEARANCE

                                             OF YOUR WORST MOMENTS

you are so much more

i promise

and even if you can't see that now,

please, just hold on to it,

hold on to it until you can.

letterhead #4

Dear future me,
I'm sorry I didn't study
for bio (and probably all the others)
I just hate this. I hate what's happening
and how little control i have over it.
I hate how I had control but I gave it up.
I hate how it makes me feel.
I hate how I told Bella, but she brushed it off, so I did too ( i hate how that didn't work).
I hate how when I think of the future I only feel despair,
how it seems so close to being too hard.
And now I'm choking on my own tears.

It's just hard, you know? Just
hold on till your play
it'll be good then.
With love,