Tuesday, January 11, 2011

letterhead #5

Dear Meg,
This is my second letter to you.
You could already know what I'm about to tell you,
But somehow I don't think so.
Despite how confident I sound in my previous letter I wasn't sure it was you.
I thought maybe it was someone else,
Maybe I was making things up,
After all- a lot of people like frozen raspberries.
But tonight you cleared all doubt.
You have a blog, with 18 followers, you've been on it a year.
You signed a comment recently with your real name.
But most importantly, tonight you said you wouldn't want me reading your blog.
Wouldn't want me following your blog.

Sorry it has taken me so long to tell you.
I guess I didn't want you reading my blog,
Knowing it was me when you did.

But that only reinforces the point that I should be honest.

At first I wasn't sure what to do,
But I think I have the solution.
We stop following each other.
Stop reading each other's blogs,
Which sucks because yours is one of my favorites.

I don't want to force you to stop following mine but
How can I post everything that's going on if I'm afraid you'll judge me?
Afraid you'll tell someone or interpret it incorrectly?
This blog is the equivalent of my diary, of counselling,
It's everything I don't tell my friends.

I guess I'm taking the easy way out.
I really admire your writing.
I haven't breathed a word to anyone and I promise I won't.
Please do the same for me, no matter what you read or what you've read.
And please don't stop posting, I would be so upset, feel so guilty.
I even considered not telling you because I didn't want you to feel like you couldn't use blogger anymore.
And now you've left tumblr cause people are reading it.
I'm sorry I screwed this up for you.

I've already read all your posts so it's okay if you do the same.
But, please don't utter a word.

Thank-you for being so nice to me when I started.

Fair's fair.
I thought I should tell you on our own turf.
It's Grace.

1 comment:

P.s. I am Me. said...

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